I want it too.

I know that those things will come when god wants it, not any sooner.

But right now, oh Allah I can't help but wishing and wanting for those things to happen to me too.

And when it comes it might not come my way. I do feel like I am at least a little prepared for this than ever before. Although I can't be so sure.

There is also that feeling of "what if it never comes?". I want it too Ya Allah but if you have other plans for me, I pray Allah that you make it easy for me to accept what you have planned for me.

Make this life and the hereafter easy for me Ya Allah.

-MNN